A couple of days ago I wrote about a song that I like talking about how God is always with us and there is nowhere we can go to escape God’s reach.  That’s a comforting feeling and I have always been conscious that no matter where I was or what I was doing, God was right beside me the whole time.

About 10 years ago, I went through some evangelism training at my church and one of the exercises we did was to write down our testimony from a before and after salvation perspective.  There were some hints to help out in case you had a hard time thinking of things to write about.  I don’t remember the whole list, but it included things like:

• Living a bad life before versus living for God now
• Going to Hell before versus going to Heaven now
• Hopelessness before versus hope now
• Being alone before versus always having God with you

When I got to the fourth one, I could immediately identify with the fact that I never questioned whether or not God was with me.  I was so aware of it, I didn’t give it much thought, I just knew He was there.  No matter where I was or what I was doing, He was there with me and for me.  I actually got kind of cocky about it.  I NEVER questioned that God was with me.  You know what happened next.

A couple of years ago I went through a hard time with several things at the same time and it seemed like it lasted forever.  Satan took my cocky awareness and attacked it head on.  Actually my guard was probably down because I was so confident about the fact that I knew I was never alone.

I became depressed and for the first time in my life, I felt like God had turned His back on me.  He left me for more important things and I was all alone to fend for myself.  It was one of the lowest points that I’ve experienced.  I knew in my heart that I was wrong, but I was not listening to my heart.  I was listening to the father of lies.  Satan had sold me on the fact that God really didn’t care about the day to day experiences of my life.  I was not good enough for God to be involved in my affairs.  I was going through this bad time because I had lived so badly that God gave up on me.

It was all lies.

Thank you God that you have never left me alone for one nanosecond.  It’s a comforting feeling that while I may not ever get to meet the President or someone “important”, I have direct and instant access to the Creator of the universe.  He planned it that way from the beginning.

Please share some of your experiences.

Garry